I always remind myself, "why this shit is happening to me"

I would only blame myself but no one else. It is because I know the reason, if I dedicated more effort on the academic in the past, I wouldn't be here, dealing with shit people with shit problems for shitty reward. I believe myself should be much better than this.

People could only live for once, which means one must live with all the consequences from his decisions, either for the good or the bad ones.

So everytime when I recall this fact, it motivates me to work or study. I will take back all those good things that I want for so bad and things that I deserved to have.