My Aunt has past away this morning, actually i dun really get upset, maybe u think i'm kinda cold blooded, but she suffer alot from sickness, that's better to let her go, i'll miss her. I really luv my family and relatives, we built a very close relationship between us since i was born, i have a very serious sickness since i was born n i have a big operation when i was born after 3 months, think about at 70's the technology was still not as good as now, maybe i'll die at that operation, i can't eat anything n if i eat, i'll throw it all out, all my aunt, uncle and family, even my mate take care of me by shift from morning till nite, i can't breathe coz my nose was totally stuck, they use their mouth and suck my stuff outta my nose, i got needle shot and straw all over my body, think about how critical when i was just a baby, all my realtives and family safe my life. At last i am 23 yrs old now, i am a healthy person now. I really appriciated they safe my life. This morning i heard the bad new about my aunt has pass away, then i went back to sleep coz i have to work today, my mum won't let me go with her, then i stay at home, i get flash back about my childhood, i still remember she brought me lotz of chocolate ice cream when i was a kid, i can't sleep and i cried out at last. I was thinking what is life, why people suicide when there's no hope for them, why people give up themselves when they got bankrupt? Why people work hard and got no pay back? Why people are afraid of death? What is the meaning of life? I read newspaper everyday and lots of people suicide or die in accident, what people searching for their meaning of life? They wanna be a rich guy? They wanna get good standard of living, actually everybody want to have a peaceful life and die in peace, but there is no perfect life in this world, everybody have to fight for their life, maybe u'll work hard and get no pay back for ur rest of ur life, but u should be glad that u can control ur life, u can touch what u wanna touch, u can hear what u wanna hear, u can go whatever u wanna go, u can speak out what u want to speak, u can luv and u have thoughts, u can smile and cry either. I think thatz the proof of life, that really remind u that u r living in this world and life is in ur hand. People is just like a control, u choose ur channel and the TV will show which channel u wanna c, maybe thatz not the time for the show u wanna c, but there is a image for u guys to look, and ur show will coming soon, just dun blame ur life, try to enjoy what u can do now, thanx god that i still can move, dun blame the society, coz this is reality n people are getting too realistic. Pls dun scare of death and sickness, coz when it's time to leave u can't escape, i'm not afraid of death, coz i suppose to be dead if i am not lucky when i was a baby, i promise i'll remember what i've said today, and i know i'll meet back my aunt in the next world one day!